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Chalk and Tia :) almost both desexed, Chalk is now Tia in a week and a half :) half legal cats!!
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Song i like - This is who i am, Vanessa Amorosi

Verse1}
I spend my life
Trying to do things right
but all I do is fall to my face with my hands and my hips so many times
but then I learned
after being burnt
to get back up, push straight on, stop the tears,

people move on
ooonnnn

{Chorus}

Well it's alright to be myself,
Now I've Learned To Stand
Well its OK to be just who I am
I've spent years really hating me
longing to be friends (friends)
Now I hope that you can understand,

This Is Who I Am
.

{Verse 2}
Now when life gets tough
I'm quick to hurry up
I run all day
I run through the night
I'll break down walls, I'll hit up high

I don't care if I'm fat,
Or if you think my clothes are bad
Yet i can go to sleep at night I'm a good person and I'll get by, I!!

{Chorus}
Well it's alright to be myself,
Now I've Learned To Stand
Well its OK to be just who I am
I've spent years really hating me
longing to be friends (friends)
Now I hope that you can understand,

This Is Who I Am

{Verse 3}
I need someone, someone someone, someone like me

You deserve, deserve, deserve to have me

Because your world keeps spinning
And don't try to turn it


{Chorus}
Well it's alright to be myself,
Now I've Learned To Stand
Well its OK to be just who I am!
I've spent years really hating me
longing to be friends (friends)

Now I hope that you can understand

This Is Who I Am

yyeaaahhhhhh, yeah yeah

This is who I am!

Oh, take a breather this is who I ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah Am.

All i....

All i ever dreamed of was for you to be by my side
All i ever wanted, was to hold you close and kiss those lips.
All i ever wanted, was u in my arms
All i ever wanted was u beside me, wisk that charm
All i ever wanted, has now vanished,
Because u dont believe in my dreams and u dont believe in me
All i ever wanted was u and i together.
All i ever wanted.
All i ever did, was cry every night, and get more and more depressed cause u were not by my side.

A thought/

Just a pic to show u how bad my shoulder, i am waiting for surgery looks like.
You know, i dont know what to say atm,
I havent had alot good going on for me for a while, SO its why i have been quiet on my blogs for some time Guess i just some times cant be stuffed, writing either cause i just dont have the energy.
I am just trying to get through the last few weeks of my studies, Just picking up some extra days to finilise them.
With the complication of a dislocated arm that i have to wait for surgery for. Its hard. Didnt realise how hard it was, Trying to bring home the washing, trying to clean up my place. AND trying to Bring home shopping. Its just plain hard, AND not been giving any pain kilers, Just taking panamax every 4 hours, during the night when the it aches, IT doesnt help me, the last few days i have nt slept much, and ive had consistant headaches and really strained.
Not eating properly again, In which i feel ive already lost more weight. I lost 15 kilos since xmas already, thanks to stress. and where i live.
The last few months have been consistant hospital, doctor appointments, and for my shoulder and anxiety. Which has implemented my depression and ive sunk, down low lately. alot.
I cannot take on more then i need to right now, Nor can i be any better then i am.
I dont go out alot, i force myself to go to my studies. No more after this. cause of my shoulder and frankly, i just cant be stuffed, right now doing more, no energy left.
Right now, i am lost, on my own, and never felt so alone.
You see someone thinks i pushed them away, and that i stopped loving them. Well u couldnt be more wrong, there has never been anyone else since i met you, Its always been Just YOU since i began talking to you. You were all i wanted and all i needed. You were the one i dreamt, of waking up to every day for the rest of my life. You were the one, that i always on my mind no matter where i went and u were the one. that i dream about, and think about every day no matter where i was and what i was doing. You were the one i talked about to my friends, How much i loved and wanted this with you.
You were the one.
You are now the one i lost, over my own stupidty and over my own. self insecurites and over my own fucked up depression. thanks to my fucked up life. and my fucked up dreams. Ive lost the only thing that ever meant the world to me.
Nothing is ever as it seems,
thought it would be forever. How wrong was i.



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